Today, was a dark day for me. I’m beginning to question whether I am on the right career path, whether my marriage is a stable as I thought it was, whether I am being the best mother I can be. On Sunday, I found out that a former classmate of mine had committed suicide. It shook me up and got me thinking why a wife and mother would leave her family behind like that. Today, attempted to answer that question.
I’m so far from being the woman I want to be and the hardest thing is not knowing how to get there. What’s the first step? I’m not sure if there is a point to this post, I’m not sure if anyone will read it. Maybe someone else feels the way that I do. Maybe somehow this will help someone else, or help me. There’s an emptiness within me, a dark hole that threatens to swallow me up and poison my life. How can I escape it? How can I get back to who I was? Is this postpartum depression?